Hi Claire!
I had my first baby in Spring 08 & became increasingly depressed in the weeks following the (very traumatic) birth, ending in psychosis, being sectioned & a hospital stay of about 2 weeks during which time I started ECT. I became psychotic again a few months later & was hospitalised again. I made 3 attempts to end my life when first ill & the whole experience was pure and utter hell. I was very lucky though afterwards, being given excellent psychological support from a clinical psychologist & great support from a CPN also. I live in a different area now & my husband & I are considering having a 2nd baby - we've been advised by my psychiatrist to remain on my antidepressant throughout a 2nd pregnancy & to start antipsychotic meds the day the baby is born (I responded well to one particular antipsychotic after my 2nd episode of psychosis).
Like you some members of my family think we're stupid to even think about having another baby, but fortunately other family members are extremely supportive. When you feel vulnerable yourselves it is so undermining when people you love can't be positive for you isn't it? Anyway, I completely understand your nervousness, we're right there too! - I just keep thinking how wonderful it would be for our little girl to have a sibling & our family to finally feel complete (we had always wanted 2 children before the PP). My GP & health visitor have both said they would recommend to the hospital that I be offered a planned caesarian to reduce the concern about another traumatic birth - would this be helpful for you also?
I wish you & your family the very, very best - you so deserve a positive, "normal" experience this time. xxxx